Bittersweet

Hey there.

Today is a bittersweet day for me. A day that many mothers' go through.  A day that is normally a celebration of growth and life.

Which, don't get me wrong, it is a celebration.  But it is also day where I have to address the fact that my little babies, really aren't little babies anymore.

At exactly, 12:PM Jackson Alexxander turned 3 years old.  Three years ago, that precious little man came into my life and it was like finally seeing someone that you had fallen in love with a long time ago.  Jackson was 5 lbs. 13 oz.  He was in the tight quarters since his sister took up most of them space.  He came out with a smooshed nose.  A crooked little forehead.  Lillian laid on his little face and smooshed him.

He was my laid back, relaxed little man.  He was my perfect little Jackson.  Beautiful and amazing.  He was everything I hoped he would be.  Healthy, perfect and amazing.

Here is just minutes after he was born.

 

Then at 12:45pm, Lillian Kendall was born.  She was born with a perfect little head, round and angelic.  She was the "crowder" not the "crowdee", LOL.  She was born at 5 lbs 11oz; no complications.  Her little umbilical cord was wrapped around her little body, but other than that, she was born with no issues.  We learned shortly after she was born, that she does have a webbed toe, but with all the things that could have gone wrong with twins, we were totally fortunate.

She was everything that I expected and wanted.  A little sassy, high maintenance, and health.  Not to mention, absolutely beautiful.

I feel horrible saying this, but before I got pregnant with the twins, I really didn't want any girls.  But now that I have her...I could never imagine my life without her.  She is my mirror image.  She is my little baby girl and she is just the light of my life.

As any mom of twins will tell you, it is pure chaos.  We are truly a traveling three ring circus.  Diapers, sippy cups, golfish, cookies, just a battery of toddler paraphernalia.  

They are expensive.  Daycare alone (while I have the best daycare in the world.) is more than my mortgage.  Diapers, don't even get me started.  And milk, I might as well start my own dairy farm.  I am sure that would be less expensive.

But, through every bit of the craziness, the stressed out dinners in public places, the insane cost of having twins, they are two of the greatest little beings on the face of this planet. 

Jackson literally has a face that just makes my heart melt and at times brings tears to my eyes.  His heart is so gentle and loving.  He is going to be my old soul kid.  I bet on it.  He is just so sensitive and perfect.

 

Lillian is high maintenance, but with good intentions.  She just wants everyone else in the world to know that she is worth it.  Her cute little giggle and her amazing kisses make me happy.  She is so perfect and precious in every way possible.

  

I am getting ready to start on party stuff!!

Happy Birthday babies.  Momma loves you!!!